Some Days are easier then Others...

Psalm 106:2-5
    "2 Who can list the glorious miracles of the Lord?
Who can ever praise him enough?

3 There is joy for those who deal justly with others
and always do what is right.

4 Remember me, Lord, when you show favor to your people;
come near and rescue me.


5 Let me share in the prosperity of your chosen ones.
Let me rejoice in the joy of your people;
let me praise you with those who are your heritage."

Yesterday was a day of celebration; for lots of women. Yesterday was Mother's Day, and while I do have a wonderful Mother, Aunts and Grandmothers; it's a bittersweet day for me. It's even worse because it's a Sunday, a day when I spend a lot of time online, in the world of Facebook. All day long yesterday I read people's status directed at their mothers, or at their wonderful children and spouses, and while I don't begrudge them their day, I can't help but wish it were my day as well.

I see days like yesterday as a chance to renew my desire to learn about faith and patience during this year. I was fine most of the day, but about 3/4 of the way through it dawned on me that I'm not pregnant still; and that I desperately want to be. So I made a choice, and that choice was to write about it today; however God wanted me to write SLIGHTLY different then I wanted to.

 I wanted to whine and complain about how I'm still not pregnant and I sometimes feel like it's never going to happen for me; but God put Psalm 106 in my path to read this morning. Verse two of that Psalm says "2 Who can list the glorious miracles of the Lord? Who can ever praise him enough?" and isn't THAT the truth? Who CAN list those glorious miracles? I know that I can't, I just don't think there is enough paper in the world, or enough time to type them all here; and that's just the miracles I'M involved with! Reading these words made me think that I need to praise Him for what He HAS done, and not dwell on what it is He hasn't done...yet. As I kept reading His words, I came across this verse from the same Psalm; "4 Remember me, Lord, when you show favor to your people; come near and rescue me."  and was reminded that not only has He done great miracles, but He knows the desires of my heart and He shows favor to His people! I get so excited by that! I know that I belong to Him, that I am one of those people He shows favor to!

I know that some people may read this and be tempted to say; in His time, Jules, in His time. I KNOW that, I've heard it said time and time again. But on this, the day after Mother's were celebrated the land over, please don't tell me "it'll happen in His time" especially if you already have children. I'd prefer that you pray for me instead, pray that I will remember that I can not count all of His wonderful, glorious miracles, and that He shows favor to His people. Pray that I can remember that those two things added together means that I may someday hold a child in my arms that I've carried for nine months in my womb. In fact, I'll make you a promise that if you do this for me; I'll do the same for you!

Dear Lord, I pray for the people reading this blog. I would ask that You would give them a sense of peace whatever it is that they may be going through right now. I pray that they could remember that Your glorious miracles can't be numbered, and that You do, indeed; show favor to Your people. Father I ask that if someone who is reading this today, isn't counted among Your people that You would lead them to You. Thank You, Father, for all that You have done for us; and for everything that You are going to do. Amen.